Part Of You

I'm sorry for the way I made everything revolve around you
For the way I would call you up just to tell you the silliest things
For the way I would want to know that you were safe and sound
For the way I wanted to be a part of you.

I'm sorry for the way that I made you the center of my Universe
For the way I wanted to know every little plan you made
For the way I wanted to know where you were every moment
For the way I wanted to be a part of you.

I'm sorry for the way I made you my Sun, Moon, and Stars
For the way it felt to lie beside you contented
For the way your voice was the first and last thing I'd want to hear
For the way I wanted to be a part of you.

I'm sorry for the way I made you the most important part of my life
For the way I felt that work and chores were invasions on our time
For the way I wanted you beside me always
For the way I wanted to be a part of you.

I'm sorry for the way that your kiss could melt my heart
For the way your eyes could touch my soul
For the way your smile brightened my entire World
For the way you made me feel a part of you.

I'm sorry for the way that I will always be in love with you
For the way I will never forget how much you mean to me
For the way I can never let go of the magic that we shared
For the way I miss being a part of you

This is one of the more recent works to be included in this collection and I believe the poem speaks for itself fairly well in terms of the emotion involved; it shouldn't be too hard to understand the point of view from which it was written.

There are all kinds of reasons why relationships fail in life; there are probably as many reasons for failure as there are relationships to fail. One of the most common, at least in my experience, is that one person loves the other 'too much.'  Relationships are hardly as equal as some would portray them to be.  It is in fact the rare partnership that is a true egalitarian state, whereas most are simply based on convenience and compromise. While there is nothing inherently wrong with that, most relationships that I've been exposed to -- either first hand, or as a third party -- have hardly been equal in terms of each party's emotional involvement.

Whenever you are in a situation where one person in the relationship feels so strongly about the other, yet the veracity of those emotions are not reciprocated, there lurks a time bomb. Now, this bomb may very well never detonate, but the fuse has been lit, and every day that comes and goes, every day that perpetuates the inequality is another day closer to the end of the relationship. There honestly can be no true partnership when the very stabilizer that the partnership is based on is itself not perfectly balanced.

That's what happened to me, and that's why this poem was written. At its very heart this poem is an apology for loving somebody too much; for wanting to consume them, for being too blind to see that the desire to express to them how deep your love is may be the very thing that brings the relationship to its fall. Like I said, it's all about compromise and if two people can find that happy medium that allows them to love each other in their own special ways, then they truly have found the key to a happy, healthy partnership.

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